Thursday, August 12, 2010
The Measure of Success
My friends (and husband) just kind of stared at me and I plastered a sheepish grin on my face. "Well, it's just that it's exciting that people are reading my blog, ya know?"
I've been thinking a lot about what it means to be successful in the writing world. If you put me up against, well, most anyone, I don't look successful. I have a record of 14 comments on any one given post. I have 19 followers. I've been published online, but not on actual paper. I would think that most people might look at me and think...mediocre, at best.
Looking at the numbers, that might be true, but for some reason, I look at the numbers and shrug my shoulders. Sure, there are days when I am a bit deflated by the lack of responses. I submit an article and hold my breath, wondering if I'm good enough. But I have to remind myself, if I am writing for God and His glory, all that matters is He who is greater than me. I know that I want to be humble, but this does not come naturally to me. Pride often rears its ugly head and I yearn to take in any accolades. In reality, though, I know that I can only write these words because He is at work in me. The truth is, even as hard as it is to swallow, if I only touch ONE person that has to be enough for me. Over and over again, I must repeat to myself -- This is not about me and my worth. My worth comes from Jesus.
When I stare out into Blogland and think, Does anyone hear me? (echo, echo, echo), I have to trust that I am just doing what He wants me to do, that I am turning these hands placed precariously on the keyboard over to Him. And I have to be willing and ready to listen to what others are saying to me, as well. I continually stand in awe at how amazingly blessed I am to have stumbled onto so many fabulous blogs. I find Him continually refining me through your stories -- your joys, your heartaches, your lives. In such the cutthroat field that writing is, I would think my natural reaction would be to view you as competition. How could I ever stand out in such a rich talent pool? I can't honestly say that I don't care how many followers I have -- I do. I can't say that I don't get excited about comments -- I do. But, I'm not trying to be better than anyone else. I'm happy with just giving what I can offer and taking in all the other goodies that people offer me. This is a whole new world for me and I am reveling in it.
Link up with awesome people like Andrea at Caffeinated Randomness and Rachel at Home Sanctuary.
Posted by Jen Ferguson at Thursday, August 12, 2010