Last week, I linked up with Jennifer, but I kinda didn't read the reason for the link up (so, so sorry, Jennifer) and I just posted the link to my last blog entry.
But isn't it so interesting how God uses our mistakes to get our attention? Last week, I blogged about God calling me to engage in the Sabbath -- a time not to work, to do something that was worshipful to God and pleasurable to me. And, as I was lamenting my mistake, I had this very strange pull toward charcoal pencils and a sketch book. Draw, He said. In this creation, you will find Me.
There was definitely choice involved here. Work and ignore God or draw and take a sabbath (or a 30 minute one, at least). As I stated last week, I'm just not really into hurting God's feelings on purpose and so I simply told Him, Yes, I will come. The second choice was whether or not to actually do what He
The Sabbath is supposed to look different from my normal, everyday life. The purpose here is simply pleasure. There is no end goal (gasp!), there is no right way to do it, perfection is not required. I thought about the tools that I selected with which to draw. Blank sketch book paper and charcoal pencils. It's easy to draw with charcoal -- with just a quick run down a line, I can create shadows and depth (or at least I can try). It's easy to hide my mistakes and does not require the precision of a graphite pencil. I can still erase errant lines, thank goodness. Upon that blank piece of paper, I can be unguarded. I can slowly loosen up and release. I can let myself go, unworried about the final product, about not measuring up, about not having everything. just. so.
This freedom, I think, has a place in my relationship with Jesus. He is the eraser of my sins. He can run His finger down the lines in my life and produce depth. He can use the lines that I at first thought were mistakes to bring a glorious new element to my piece.
And so, in the unexpected, tangible items of this world -- a charcoal pencil, an eraser, and blank pieces of paper -- I found rest. I found Him.
I'm linking up all over the place today (because there are just SO many fabulous people in this blog world). Check out Andrea's Caffeinated Randomness, Rachel's Home Sanctuary, and Jennifer's Sneak Peek Friday.