Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Soli Deo Gloria Sisterhood


It kinda feels like a race day today.  I have lots of anticipation -- I am so excited to see what God does here on the pages of our computers, out in the wide expanses of the Internet, gathering sisters in Christ together to encourage and love one another, all the while bringing glory to the Savior.

And that is why the name of this meme is the Soli Deo Gloria Sisterhood.  Soli Deo Gloriais Latin for God's Glory Alone.  Really, at the heart, this isn't about the quality of our words, but about the living out of those words and finding hope and faith in Jesus.

All this to say, I'm so glad you're here.

A few housekeeping notes:

{1}  The linky tool will be open from Tuesday at 12:01 AM (Central time) to Tuesday at 11:59 PM.  Please make sure that you have linked up with the permalink and not just with your blog address (if you have questions about this, email me at jenfergie (at) me (dot) com).  This means you need to have your blog post written on your blog before you link up.  Also, if you would please grab my button and post it at the beginning or end of your post, I think (hope) it will provide an easy way for others that read your blog to join us.

{2}  The content can really be about whatever you want, but the goal is to share about something meaningful that is happening in your life.  This is designed to be a safe place where you can ask hard questions. 

{3}  I would love it if you would join with me in praying for this sisterhood -- that God would guard it fiercely, shower us with His love as we journey with Him, and open our hearts to what He would have us learn from each other.  Please try to visit as many sisters as possible so that we all know each other is reading and supporting us in our walk.

{4}  Oh!  One last thing:  If you are here and you don't have a blog or do not wish to post your heart on your blog, please feel free to leave your thoughts in the comments section.  If you would like, you can leave your email address there, too, so that we might shower you with encouragement and love that way.

Okay -- now, here is my heart (I'm going to keep this short just today since I've already kept you here with the above notes).

As some of you know, God is in the process of pruning activities from my life.  I've given up leading the women's Bible study at my church.  I have recently decided to resign from LeTourneau University as an adjunct professor.  I now delete PTA volunteer emails before reading them (shh, don't tell).  I think all of this is an effort to get as many nutrients as possible to the prize fruit that God is trying to cultivate in my heart and in my life.

I have no idea what the "prize fruit" is, really.  In reality, it could just be having the time to be a better mom.  And I know that saying "just could be" signifies that perhaps I'm not truly satisfied with that path.  Unfortunately, it may be the truth right now, not because I don't love my children, but because I have other desires in my heart as well that I would love to see come to fruition.  And perhaps there is the reason He is doing all this...

My whole life as been about what I want to be and never about who I am.  I've always been a visionary, I've always been a striver, I've always set out to prove.  It's been about me and my work and doing His work on the side.  God was my part-time job instead of my full-time focus.  This, I have found, does not work out too well for me, or my family, for that matter.

I can relate to this passage in Haggai (not in a condemning way, but a gentle convicting way):   “You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?” declares the LORD Almighty. “Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with your own house." (Haggai 1:9)

I want to start working on God's house, in His Kingdom, with no distractions of my own will and pride.  I don't want to be so busy that I miss out on His delicious plans.

21 comments :

  1. Oh, girl. We are SO hearing the same thing from Him. I am doing EXACTLY the same thing with my own life and I am much like how you described yourself. You MUST go to Relevant next year - so much of what you say aligns with what they spoke over us.

    Plus, I selfishly want a chance to meet you in person...:)

    Love this link-up and I love your heart behind it. God is using you well.

    Natalie at Mommy on Fire
    http://www.mommyonfire.com

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  2. This is awesome. I love when you say "My life has been about WHAT I WANT TO BE not about WHO I AM." I have never been able to express this, but this is how I feel.

    I'm excited with the possibilities that this new meme will do. I'll be praying for all the sisters who take part that they'll be able to be so vulnerable and open and that they can trust that this is who God wants them to be.

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  3. I feel like I could have written your post myself -- always striving, always wanting to be more, never content to rest in what He wants. Yes. Very convicting thoughts, Jen. And congratulations on launching this very special community!

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  4. I always knew you were one of my teachers, and I learn a lot about God here, and keep coming back for more enlightenment, but I did not know you really were a teacher (a professor and a bible teacher!) It all makes perfect sense now... xo

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  5. This is wonderful! I am trying to let go of some responsibilities I don't really need on my plate right now as well.

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  6. Jen, before I finished reading your blog my exact thought was: "this is not about being a better mom (necessarily)...this is just about being." Then I read on and felt confirmed! I encourage you, friend: don't turn mommy-hood into another thing to strive about. Let this season be 100% about being. God will do amazing things and your family will get to eat of that juicy fruit. I love you and I'm proud of you for being obedient!!!

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  7. Good morning, Jen and Sisterhood! I am in a bit different boat... it seems God keeps putting responsibilities ONTO my plate. Since my dad died in September, I am trying to help my mom with lots of confusing paperwork (pension, life insurance & such). Her memory is really foggy, so she has trouble keeping track of anything. Also it's difficult for her to get around. I am two hours away from her, and have had to spend a lot of time on the road, taking her to business appointments.

    My sister had been helping with taxes and medical insurance, but now she has cancer. We thought it was just a temporary setback because she was diagnosed very early and had surgery, but the surgeon found cancer on her liver. She just started chemo for that, but her dr. is not too optimistic.

    It's all getting to be a bit much. I feel as if I am trying to live my life and my mom's at the same time (I do work, albeit part-time. Got a husband and some kids in college, too), and now I am very concerned for my sis-- and HER daughters, both in college. Their dad is on disability, suffers chronic depression, and essentially cannot function as a dad.

    I am praying for the Lord Jesus to be glorified in all this, one way or another; perhaps to bring some of these family members closer to Him. I know I need to depend more on Him instead of feeling so responsible for everyone.

    I appreciate anyone's prayers. Thanks, Jen, for starting this community!
    If anyone wants to reach me you can email me at janjohnson77@gmail.com
    PS: I still have my sense of humor, though! :)

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  8. Found your blog via Graceful....like it. going ot keep reading it!

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  9. Jen,
    I love your idea of building a community here. Plus, go you with creating your own bloggy button!

    I can't wait to see what comes from all the pruning.

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  10. Funny how so many are in the 'boat' of paring down and really finding out what God has for us! I look forward to checking back and reading some posts after my littles go to bed tonight!

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  11. Thanks so much for the invitation to link here--I followed Graceful over as well. I find some of my favorite blogs by following those whose writing I love and admire. Paring down and pruning--hard work. I'm in a season with my kids almost grown and out of the house, trying to figure out what to do next. Looking forward to reading more here at your place. Blessings to you.

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  12. I might be late on this, but I think I'll give it a go. If we miss this week, can we join in next week? I don't have anything I can write for today, and my computer time is about up. :) I'll also have to e-mail for instructions since I've never done anything like this with linkys. If it's too late to join, then no worries. I'll just take it as a "not meant to be," and continue reading along in GoogleReader. :)

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  13. Great entry Jen and I so feel your heart, but I have no doubt that the Lord is going to bless you in ways you have yet to realize. He may just want you to "Be Still and Know" for a season and then will direct from there. He will definitely make His will known as you wait on Him.

    Praying for you and I do think this is going to be a great "Sisterhood." Hugs!

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  14. Oh my goodness Jen! I am overwhelmed with the ladies that have participated today. When you do what He ask oh my goodness the BEAUTY that shines. I am so excited to see how He uses this community and praying for the Sisters. <3

    My whole life as been about what I want to be and never about who I am.
    Ummm that line. You stepped on my toes. Ouch! This has been a year of working toward moving to who I am instead of playing with who I want to be. This was a beautiful challenge my friend.

    <3

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  15. a thought I heard recently... If you are not on fire for God you know you are not where God wants you to be. We can all see you are where God wants you to be:)

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  16. Hi Jen. Enjoyed your site and your words today. Love your honesty and your desire to quiet yourself and LISTEN. Deeply, deeply good.

    Love from here,
    Laura

    http://www.lauraleighparker.com {Life OVerseas}

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  17. I want to jump in on this next week; I somehow missed it this week.

    Thank you for your obedience. We all benefit.

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  18. You have moved me. Your heart is beautiful! I especially take refuge in the fact that other wonderful, christian mothers delete PTO emails without reading them... mother guilt be lifted!!

    I'll check it out and I hope to meet some of the sisters =)

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  19. I'm not sure how this works, but here is my link. www.type1diabetic3yearold.blogspot.com. post titled: a peace like no other

    I just blogged about how God has encouraged us through discovering my 3 year old is diabetic. jennifer

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  20. I love that last line, Jen! I too want God's delicious plans. :) His plans for you are good, friend.

    Mel

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  21. I've been a striver and doer too... hmmmm. Perhaps a time for rest is needed.

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