Yesterday was so different.
I was constantly in the car, rushing from place to place, last minute items on my to-do list popping up in my brain, just in the nick of time so I could do this or that before picking up a child, or two. I backed out of parking spots too quickly, I sped, I weaved too much, in and out of traffic lanes (Why must you travel 5 mph below the speed limit? I shouted at innocent cars). At the house, it was a frantic dance to get out of town presents wrapped, boxed, and address, so that perhaps Hannah and I could avoid the long lines at the post office the next day. Then it was dinner, homework, the bedtime routine. A few more little things of work tidied up, a few more emails answered, a phone call to make.
And then, there was silence and I could muster only enough energy to simply turn on the TV and let my brain go numb for a bit while watching Bourne Identity for the 30th time.
These do not sounds like simple pleasures, and no, they are not. My simple pleasure is the stark contrast between yesterday and the pace my life has been humming along with since God has begun the process of pruning activities. At the end of the day, I sat back, realizing that I had lived my life at that breakneck speed almost every day. No wonder I was normally grumbley, cranky, tired all the time. I was continually ruled by the clock, not guided by God. Time was my master, productivity was the game. I found that even when I wasn't in a hurry, I remained stuck in the hurry-up mentality. Thus, there was little room (or time) for His voice. I had a plan, you see.
But now, most days, I have time to wait to listen to see what God has planned for my day. And, on some days, I can even find joy in that waiting. Usually waiting makes me anxious. I keep peering around the corner, ready to see the next thing, do the next activity, engage in the next process. But, right now, it's not about the next. It's about the now. In the waiting, I can take advantage of the peace, joy, and love that He gives me, His palm brimming with good gifts that I would have missed if I had kept looking to the beyond.
I'm linking up with Dayle at Simple Pleasures.