My friend, Allison, recently posted this note on Facebook. As I read it, the words resonated in my heart, God's voice became clear, and I was at peace in the midst of the turmoil that has been rolling around in my head the last few days.
You see, I have been a woman without a plan. And this woman, has NEVER been without a plan. I keep asking God what the purpose of all these blog posts. Am I going anywhere with this? Will I ever publish words on actual paper? Will I be called for something more? How are You going to use all this?
Well, not really. He's speaking, but just not the words that I think I want to hear. He's saying things like:
Enjoy what you have now.
When, I read Allison's words today, it all sunk in. I pray that you might be blessed by her words as well.
Then it hit me, I do this "need for control thing" to God every day! It's hard to live life not knowing the big picture. None of us does. Not knowing the big picture can make it quite difficult to know when and where to turn, and WHY. But if I am still and listen, and if I give over the right to be in control and to know why, God does let me know what the next turn will be. Unlike my GPS, He's actually NEVER been wrong (what I have chosen to do with His directions is where the problems cropped up). If I take a turn that's a less direct route toward my destination, He stays with me and gently "recalculates" without the annoyance in his voice I swear I hear in my GPS. Sometimes I have to turn off all the noise in my life to "hear" His gentle voice telling me to turn, just like I have to turn the radio off to hear my cheapo GPS. So my challenge now is, how to relax in the journey and enjoy the scenery, finding peace in the midst of the traffic, and roadblocks? I believe I find it one turn at a time.