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Have you ever asked a question, but when the answer came, you kinda wish you hadn't asked in the first place?
I've been asking God if it was okay to dream, to imagine what the future might hold for me as far as ministry outside my family. The reason I felt like I needed to ask permission is mainly because I've struggled with pride, obsessive planning, and not living in the present. I was fearful that if I looked beyond the five feet in front of me, I would start to fall back into those pits.
Just between you and me, I think I've always known what God wanted me to do, but He has had to do a lot of housecleaning to get me ready for it. I had aspirations, you see, and those aspirations focused on what I could get out this calling. I could see the side benefits for God, you know, and for His people, but really, to be truly honest, living out said calling was just for my own glorification. It was about how I could be worthy. How I could be the best. How I could be known.
How did I know, deep down, what He was calling me to do? Because I have had moments, instances few and far between (specific to this calling), when God whooshed through me, worked through me, and brought in His glory for His people. In those happenings, I knew that I had become simply a vessel, that in His power He could knock my SELF aside, and show me what He could do through me.
Driving home after taking Hannah to preschool on Thursday, God gave me His vision for my life, or at least the part that I am to know now. And even though I think I suspected it all the while, it still came as a shock. The thought of it scares me to death. Even as I type these words, my knees get weak. It is a calling that is totally outside of my comfort zone. It is a calling that is 100% reliant upon Jesus. It is a calling that requires a daily prayer of Less of me, more of You, Lord.
For the next few SDG posts, I’m going to write more of this story – the confirmations I’ve received, the practical steps that I’m taking to live into this calling. Hopefully, you will stay tuned and walk this journey with me (I hope, I hope, I hope) because I’d sure love your encouragement and your friendship.
What? What was that? Oh, you want to know what He’s called me to do? You expect me to actually type out those words? Do you know how much more real that will make this if y’all know?
He’s called me to speak. Like in front of people. Goodness me.