Wednesday, February 2, 2011

I Am Broken: Mama's Heart

But deal well with me, O Sovereign Lord, for the sake of your own reputation!  Rescue me because you are so faithful and good.  Psalm 109: 21-22

In my Bible study tonight, Beth Moore asked me to paraphrase that Psalm.  My answer:

I am broken.  Please put me back together so that I may glorify You.

I am broken.  Please put me back together so that I may love my children.
I am broken.  Please put me back together so that I may love my children well.
I am broken.  Please put me back together so that I may be able to love unconditionally at all times.
I am broken.  Please put me back together again so that I dream Your dreams for my children and let worldly aspirations die.
I am broken.  Please put me back together again so that I might respond to them in ways that are wise and healthy.
I am broken.  Please put me back together again so that I might have discernment to see what is really stirring in their hearts.
I am broken.  Please put me back together again so that I might meet their needs in all the ways you intended a mother to fill her children.
I am broken.  Please put me back together again so that I may love my husband well and show my children the fullness of marriage.
I am broken.  Please put me back together again so that I may handle conflicts and defeats with grace.
I am broken. Please put me back together again so that my children will see that joy is possible even when the earth seems to crumble beneath my very feet.

I am broken and in no place is this more apparent to me than in my mothering.  It's a 24/7 job, which gives me plenty of opportunities to fail.  But the beauty in this is that my children will see the reconstruction.  They will witness redemption first-hand.  They will see His glory revealed in my life.  They will see beauty rise out of the shards of strewn glass.

Linking up with my precious friend, Erin, at It's Grace for Mama's Heart.


  1. This is beautiful! All mommies need to read this! =) Mothering is rough and beautiful!

  2. Jen..I can't think of a worthy response to this.."I loved it" sounds cliche to me. It touched my heart is putting it mildly. Would thank you, suffice?

  3. feel this with you ... my heart cries out too! I keep reading that they cried out to the Lord...she cried out...he cried out
    I cry out...
    we are beautiful in His eyes...even broken

  4. Hi, I am stopping by via Grace...I am a mother of 4. This is a beautiful post. I will be following! You have been called to be a mother, God has entrusted you with the gift of children.
    God Trusts YOU! Trust yourself, Children are a perfect example of unconditional love, just like Jesus. Children don't expect perfect, Just like Jesus. All they need is your love, your commitment and your attention, Just like Jesus.
    They are quick to forgive, Just like Jesus.
    Trust yourself, Just like Jesus.
    Many Blessings, Deborah
    Hope you'll follow me too!

  5. What beautiful words! Thanks for sharing your mama's heart and your reliance on Him who gives us the strength to do all that we need to do.

  6. what an inspiring piece. so good to remember that we are indeed broken but there is the one who can repair.

  7. There's no greater word to describe parenting for me lately — broken. This is really beautiful friend.

  8. Good grief, where have I been? I missed your last 3 posts. But, I'm caught up now. I just don't always get to check all my "favs" everyday. Shucks!

    Again, I say, you have a way with words like none other. Deep and inspiring posts for sure!

    Sending sunshine and rainbows to you this day!

  9. Jen, I am broken with you. And your words are my hopes too for how to be put back together. Thank you!

  10. This is so real. I am a broken mother too. I'm praying this right along with you now.

  11. dear precious jen,

    beautiful, priceless, a prayer for us all...

    i am just thanking God for you tonight, for ALL He is doing in your life and your leading to start SDG and amazing women i have 'met' that God is moving in our lives...this is a treasure and friends that can walk with me in the midst of everything else changing...

    broken friends that need Him together...thank you, jen, thank you. you are a gem!

  12. ahhhh, this is beautiful! Thank you so much for commenting on my Simple Pleasures post and for this post! I enjoy your blog very much!

  13. Oh Beth Moore...such wonderful truths come from her Bible Studies...enjoy.
    I too am broken, mother of six, wife of 30 years and walking in brokenness right now...but the truth that God is Sovereign gives me the truth that in my weakness He is made strong as He puts the pieces in place.
    Nice post

    Oh we got more snow...we are about tired of it...a solid week, and hey, we are Texans...the sun is out today and it is looking more normal even with the snow covered yards.

  14. And you are not alone...Thank God that He takes us with these cracks in our jars of clay, no? I am so, so very broken too and concern myself with a lot of what you wrote. You are a precious dear.

    Are you doing Breaking Free? I did this past fall - it's open heart surgery for sure...:)

    Natalie at Mommy on Fire


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