Thursday, February 17, 2011

Mama's Heart: Enough


Enough.

Am I enough?  Am I doing enough?  Am I giving enough?  Saying enough?  Teaching enough? Discipling enough?  Disciplining enough? Praying enough?

It's hard for me to know if I am doing everything I should be doing as a mom.  Being a natural striver, I never seem quite satisfied with my parenting.  I know that I could always be doing more.

But, see I've been asking God to make GRACE a reality in my life.  To make it tangible, visible, so that I may truly experience the fullness of His grace that is available to me.  Because, to be honest, I don't really know.

This week I was sick with the flu.  I'm the girl who NEVER gets sick.  The last time I had a fever was four years ago.  The last time I had the flu was 10 years ago.  That being said, I'm not used to being down and out.  And, me, as awful as I felt, I couldn't be enough for my kids.

So God ushered in grace.

...a husband who stayed home from work to care for his two daughters, one of whom was also sick.
...a mother who brought over Valentine's presents for her granddaughters to keep them happily entertained.
...a friend who took the youngest daughter to preschool...and brought her back home again.
...a friend who brought over a new book to read.
...blogger friends who offered prayers.
...church friends who offered Sonic drinks.
...neighborhood friends who offered playdates.

When I couldn't be enough, God used others to fill in the gaps.  And truthfully, even when I am physically well, I can't always be enough for my little girls, as much as it pains me to say it.  I have limitations. I have faults.

But now, I also have grace. Living, breathing, tangible grace.  Grace that fills in the gaps.

What's happening in other mama's hearts?  Visit It's Grace to find out!

10 comments :

  1. What a sweet, sweet post, Jen. Being a mom is such a hard job. As Mark Twain said, "an inestimable blessing and an inestimable bother." Isn't that great.

    As far as being enough . . . questions we all ask. As a mom, with adult kids, I can look back and say, as flawed as I am, I was enough . . . because my kids have a relationship with God who is the perfect ENOUGH. A mom and dad and God . . . what else could any kid need. (an oversimplification, I am sure, but still truth.)

    Sure hope you are on the mend, dearest.

    Fondly,
    Glenda

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  2. Is this just something that us Mama's deal with all of the time? Never measuring up to what we 'should' be doing with and for our kids? I think probably so...I'm so grateful the Lord brought people to do where you couldn't, He always comes thru...God's grace is suffient isn't it? Glad you are feeling better Jen.

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  3. What wonderful remeinders that God is always here to help! Hope you are feeling better.

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  4. This is precious. I love how the beginning of this post you ask the questions I ask myself over and over again (am I enough?) and you end the post talking about grace and blessing. Maybe I need to have a little more grace in my life...

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  5. "Fill the gaps". . .that's the second time this week that I've heard that saying. I love it, and I love the visual of actually pouring God into our gaps.

    Get better and rest. I, too, am a girl who is never sick. Oh, can't stand it. Enjoy your new book and sleep.

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  6. Loved this, Jen. I often wonder if I'm enough, too. But God.

    Aren't family and friends just wonderful blessings? So glad you had folks pitching in and helping.

    So glad you're feeling better..thanks for checking in on me just a moment ago. :)

    Thanks for linking up and sharing your heart..

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  7. We can never be all that we need/should be in any area of our lives, that's the beauty of God's grace. So glad He filled the gaps for you through family and friends. What a blessing!

    Hope you are back to 100% SOON! Blessings my dear!

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  8. I often wonder if other mama's are as concerned with screwing up their kids as I am...

    Thanks for sharing, and glad you feel better!

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  9. What an awesome reminder of God's grace, of which we're constantly in need! I'm with you - so wanting to be everything for my daughters - when in reality, God has their best in mind with each person and circumstance He allows into our lives.

    Hope you're feeling much better!!

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  10. 'Being a natural striver'...well you had me right there;)

    and sickness is such a good time to be reminded of grace and of how many people love us and want to serve us in our need and it is such a good time to receive...you are loved and I am so glad you have this community to wrap you tight that just reflects Him and how HE LOVES YOU!

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