Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Unedited Jen

Oh, if you have been here before -- you are in the right place.  You see, it's all redesigned BECAUSE I HIT THE WRONG BUTTON.  Instead of just changing a font, well, I guess I changed the whole thing.  But, change is good, right? Right???  Aghhhhhhhh!  (By the way, the new font is appropriately called "crushed.")

I'm participating in a new meme this week over at The Gypsy Mama.  The goal is to write for 5 minutes.  No more, no less.  And, my favorite part, no editing allowed (I honestly wonder how many people really don't go back and edit, but anyway...)  This is my first time to do this and I didn't realize there would be a prompt, so looks like I'm not doing this exactly right the first time around.  Grace?

Start.

Last night, I let myself dream a little bit.  I imagined speaking to a group of women and teaching them how to use art in order to hear God speak through Scripture.  I watched myself on the stage.  I was smiling.  My heart was so full of joy.  This is my calling, I thought.  All other fears and what-ifs faded into the background and I was just so...there.  I think every so often I must, as a practice, shirk off the fear for a few moments and just allow myself to see ME as God sees me.  I see my imperfections.  I see my failures. I see my weaknesses.  But, He, He sees me as whole.  He sees me as His.  He sees me as somebody who can do anything with the power of Christ, who strengthens me.  Surely, I should spend more time looking at myself through His eyes.

Today, I've been a bit overwhelmed at times.  My children just did not seem like they were going to be able to show each other love today after school.  I mean, it is Thursday, after all, which means prime-time for melt-downs.  I'm sure many of you know that drill.  But, amazingly, after a few thrown toys and screaming matches, they ended the afternoon like this:
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I guess it goes to show you that God even hears those random sentences like, Oh, Dear God, please help me get through this day.


Done.

Linking up this randomness with my favorite Friday peeps, old and new:
Michelle at Lost in the Prairies
RachelAnn at Home Sanctuary
The Gypsy Mama

25 comments :

  1. oh and ps . . .look at you all redesigned! I love all the tabs on top!

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  2. Yes, you do need to spend more time seeing yourself as God sees you. And, never forget that God will not call you to anything that He does not equip you to do. Blessings for a wonderful weekend!

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  3. I think one of the hardest things for us is to see the beauty God sees in us...the beauty He created us to be. May He keep reminding you. <3

    Yoru kids are so adorable!!

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  4. I love this thought of showing how to bring out art skills and create as Jesus speaks. I love this Jen! So unique and soooooo good!I mean it, I think you have something to say, I love hearing it too.

    I love this snippet of your sweet kiddoes.

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  5. I got here and thought...wait a minute...where am I? HAHAHA! Don't worry...I've done the same thing on blogspot before...I sort of like this better...can I say that?? Love to you today!!

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  6. I love the look of your blog, don't sweat it! I totally understand where you are coming from. I always see my failures and shortcomings. It is very hard for me to remember that I am God's workmanship and loved just the way I am...I see what I wish could be fixed! Recently, as I have saturated myself in scripture, I have found so many verses, however, that remind me of God's character and how much He loves me. It has really helped!

    Hope you have an amazing weekend, and enjoy those girls! So precious!

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  7. Ta-da! They are always full of surprises, aren't they? And our God is full of surprises too. Don't be too shocked if your dream comes true.

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  8. Hi Jen....one word for your kids - CUTE!, looks like the same age difference as my kids only mine are much older. Enjoy - the years truly fly by. Lovely post too :)

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  9. You know, I often wonder if I'm not doing a good job modeling for my kids when I see them be flat out ugly to each other. Then I hear other women talk to their children about speaking kindly, etc. and I feel better, more normal. And then they love each other so. I wrote a Five Minute Friday post about their togetherness once. It helped me with perspective like your video did.
    Parenting is joy and pain, isn't it?

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  10. LOVE LOVE the new bright look Jen...I think it reflects what is going on in your heart right now! Doesn't it feel good not to edit? and dreaming like that...I think is so good for the soul.
    xo

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  11. Your video made me laugh! I'm thrilled to know they were singing about "purple". :) I like your new look--but you were right. At first I thought I was at the wrong place/blog. ha ha God bless you and have a super weekend!!

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  12. Wow- I love this new look... I have spent countless hours in the last two weeks trying to redesign my blog(maybe I just need to push the wrong button!) I love listening to your heart when you write about your calling. I really believe that when we allow our spirit to be open and creative...He speaks. I am so excited for you!
    Blessings!!

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  13. Sweet children! Love that video...brings back memories for me. My brother and I used to do the "bicycle" with our feet. We didn't sing so sweetly though :)

    I love your blog look! I also love your thoughts about seeing yourself through God's eyes. Great message there I think we all should think upon. I've often wasted time dwelling on my weaknesses.

    Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

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  14. Enjoyed this on so many levels! I clicked over from 5 Min. Fridays and did a double-take when I clicked over, but I really like the new look! ...and your kiddos? Sooo cute. What a gift those moments were to you, I'm sure. :)

    ...and then your writing, Jen, it's beautiful. This, this fear, is something that I have so been struggling with. Thank you for your perspective, a reminder of grace, to see ourselves the way God does. I wonder if I'll ever be able to see me clearly.

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  15. Love the redo...and yeah, the 'crushed' font is workin'...

    Hold onto the TRUTH of that video-captured moment: it is the FRUIT of your mommy-efforts, and right there, it is sweet, fragrant, delightful!

    Another bit of truth to speak over yourself?
    You may be crushed, but you are not destroyed!

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  16. Just love your scripture art, Jen. And I'm sorry I missed your meme this week - some weeks are just like that! I'll be back someday soon, I promise. http://drgtjustwondering.blogspot.com

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  17. Come on--tell me the truth! Did you REALLY hit the wrong button to come up with this redesign? Cause it looks amazing! Maybe there's a biblical principle in there somewhere--something about God taking even our mistakes and transforming them into something beautiful, perhaps?

    Like this meme. Scares me a little. Can't even type comments without editing...

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  18. I love this even better...so you. I love your drawings..just perfect:) had to let you know
    happy weekend
    xo

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  19. Love the redo!!! Love it!! You are one gifted chick!! Simply divine. You are one my biggest blessings from the last few weeks. xoxo

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  20. 5 minute friday is such a good idea! wonderful renovation, too!

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  21. I am hear from a blog I found on the UBP. Your title of your blog intriguied me. I love your blog, I love the premise. I am so wanting to find that slice of heaven where you can just hear him. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
    God Bless,
    Shelley

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  22. Beautiful new look Jen!!!! LOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  23. Love it, and your new look! Great job!

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