My simple pleasure this week is a dream.
Not a while-you-sleep kind of dream. It's a hope. It's a vision. It's who I want to be.
You see, I found this new link-up called Playdates with God and I've honestly not linked up yet because the thought of play is a bit foreign to me. Playing with God? Finding Him outside of deep revelations, scripture reading, prayer and intercession? Even outside of God, do I ever really play, like with the heart and mind of a child? Splashing in jest? Starting a tickle-fight just because? Sitting with my husband and telling a joke?
You see, I know serious. I know deep conversation. I know intense spiritual journey. I know prayer. I know how to steel myself for bad news and harden my heart in disappointment (not good things, mind you, those last two). I know how to stick to a budget, how to plan a party, how to help a friend. I know how to do my job. I know how to discipline my kids (um, most of the time) and what activities are good for them.
And, I can even go through the motions of playing, of acting out Barbie dolls and calling cards in Go Fish. I can play school and I can snuggle and read a good book with my daughters. But I cannot get lost in it. I can't find the freedom in it, but I do know that it is there. It is there with my husband. It is there with my children. It is there with God. I just need to let myself go a little bit and find it.
Maybe next week, my simple pleasure will be of playing and my playdate with God will be something fully fun and freeing.
Here's to the dream.
Linking up with Dayle at Simple Pleasures
Laura at The Wellspring.