Today I'm combining my SDG post with the next 31 Days post for reasons of sanity and the fact that today's focus is really part of my current journey.
Last week, my husband and I had a bit of an argument that was touched off my the fact that um, I've been a bit...impatient, short-fused, demanding, etc. What a sweet guy -- there is a word for this type of temperament, but he is much to kind to use it.
Anyway because of said argument, the door was open for God to speak through the circumstances that I am currently in and gave me a pretty big revelation. Let me back up just a bit to tell you that I am the Assistant Director of Christian Education at my church and I am in charge of getting all the supplies for VBS, which this year is hosting 240 children. At the same time as this, I am also having to carry out all my other responsibilities of the job. And still, at the same time as this, I was asked to participate in the 31 Days to...series, Soli Deo Gloria tripled in size, I got a staff writer position at Blissfully Domestic, and I've been writing guest post after guest post. I say NONE of this out of pride or boastful thoughts, but simply to set the stage for God's conversation with me last week.
Me (to my husband): Why would God give me all of this at the same time? Clearly, He would know that I wouldn't have the best reaction to feeling this overwhelmed and anxious. Really, what was He thinking?
Craig: (insert something really profound that I can't remember here that lead me to the following conclusion)
Me: Oh my. Maybe I wasn't supposed to pick up all the extra jobs at church. I never asked Him. I just saw the need and try to fill it. And truthfully, maybe I was a bit motivated by the extra money. And so maybe He's letting me live with the consequences of stepping outside what His best way is. Is He just going to abandon me in this place where I can't do it all???? (Insert lengthy bawling session)
- I think God is showing me how this ministry at Finding Heaven and s(He) Listens is the path that He wants me on. It seems to be increasing in size and I find pure joy in being a part of it.
- God is showing me that I cannot handle this ministry while working at my church, raising two kids, paying attention to my marriage, running a household, and taking care of my own needs. Others may have that capacity. I do not (clearly).
- God will NOT abandon me during this crazy time period, but if He didn't allow me to experience how stressful the combination of all these activities in my life can be, I would simply think that I could handle it and I would miss the fullness of the journey that He has for me.
- Just because I see a need does not mean that I need to fill it. I must stop cramming my square peg of a self into all the round holes. This type of cramming does not lead to a peaceful or graceful life.
Challenge: Has God spoken to you through the circumstances of your life, either pleasant or unpleasant? Sometimes we just chalk things up to stress or coincidences, but maybe God is actually using these events to show us something, or to help us come to a realization. Can you step back from the situation for a moment to see if He's speaking through this?
Praying that you will find encouragement, opportunity, and blessings through these amazing gals below...(Link will be live until Wednesday night.)