Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Always Almost


Always, almost.
Could have been just
Perfect.
Missed it by a hair,
a drop of rain,
a bad mood erupting out of nowhere.
Striving, always striving
for this perfection that is simply
Never achievable.

And I know this.

I do realize perfection is not
Meant for this side of Heaven.
And yet,
I am disappointed.
In myself, mostly, 
for not pulling off the impossible.
Still waiting for the day when it all
Just comes together.
And yet,
I forget, often,
of the power of the Perfect One --
How He redeems.
Makes all things new.
Erases mistakes.
Creates new life out of things
seemingly arrayed as ashes.
Death into life.
Burdens lifted.
Knots undone.
Always
Perfectly made with Jesus.

And even in the melancholy mood,
As the slow music plays,
matching the beats of my heart,
and wistful thinking,
there is the hint
of looking up.
Of abandoning expectations
and putting one foot in front of the other,
moving on,
closer...
closer...
closer...
to the Author of Perfection.

26 comments :

  1. So beautiful...thank you...very touching and thought provoking today. Blessings!

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  2. Ok, I think you should get award for this one. Wow, I am copying this girl.

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  3. Beautifully written, and so true. I copied this into my journal (on my laptop). I identified with what you wrote ... so often I strive for perfection, and am learning more and more (over and over!), to just focus on pursuing the Author of Perfection. Thank you!

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  4. Beautiful. It is so wonderful to know we can always lean on our Father.

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  5. You have outdone yourself, Jen, in word and photo. Scrumptious.

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  6. Thank you for this. It's the theme for my day apparently. I "ate crow" for breakfast, spilled my entire tea latte on the floor of the car before even a sip, then came home to Isaiah 6 grace in an e-mail AND my Bible reading schedule. I have a tendency to beat myself up about sins and mistakes, and today God is inviting me through His Word and yours to receive grace instead.

    Grace and peace back to you in Christ!

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  7. Oh, it is so hard to let go of perfectionism. I want to do everything right. But I never do. (Maybe I'm perfect at imperfectionism?) Thanks for encouraging us to accept our imperfecions and accept HIS perfection for us.

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  8. I do realize perfection is not
    Meant for this side of Heaven.
    And yet,
    I am disappointed.
    In myself, mostly,
    for not pulling off the impossible.
    Still waiting for the day when it all
    Just comes together.

    Are you reading my mind. This is a struggle shared by many (women). We've GOT to let this go. Let's start a club. :)

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  9. I can so relate. Stated beautifully.

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  10. Abandoning expectations - that's a difficult thing to do, isn't it? Beautifully written and such a great reminder that He is all the perfect we need. Thanks for sharing this!

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  11. "And yet,
    I forget, often,
    of the power of the Perfect One --
    How He redeems.
    Makes all things new."...and this is our eternal hope!

    Absolute beauty here today Jen...

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  12. Oh yeah - this is lovely, lovely. Thank you, sweet Jen, for putting your struggles down in this beautiful way.

    Diana @http://drgtjustwondering.blogspot.com

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  13. This lifts my heart. I struggle with how far from perfect I am, worrying about how bad of a job I am doing. I needed that reminder that God makes all things new, brings beauty out of ashes.

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  14. Jen:

    You almost always blow me away!!Your thoughts are deep and to the core as usual.

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  15. i battle this disappointment, too, friend. yet onwards we march, closer, closer... loved this. xo

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  16. Oh how I love Emily..Jen - you are a beautiful soul you know?
    You express with words the constant battle of the flesh and spirit.
    Love ya:)
    xo

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  17. Looking up--that's been the key for me in learning to let go.

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  18. I can't believe it took me this long to comment-this is so beautiful, the words so true. There are so many that touched me. Why do I find myself disappointed for not pulling off the impossible? Good thoughts here!

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  19. If we were perfect, we wouldn't need Him. I'm so glad to be imperfect.

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  20. I was loving this and then I got to "one step closer to the author of perfection." Oh, we strive for perfection but we follow the one who is perfect -- perfect lover of our soul. Your thought process amazes me -- and blesses me more!

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  21. thank you for sharing your stories and insight with us! :-)

    immortalitytouch.blogspot.com

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  22. This is amazing...it's like you've been in my head! So good to know that others feel the same things from time to time. Praising God for being the author of our faith, and for perfecting it until we are face to face with Him!!

    Hugs to you!
    Becky

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  23. Our pastor asked the audience, "Does anyone here think they are holy?" One lady raised her hand, and the pastor was amused. I told the lady afterwards, I understand where you are coming from, and IN HIM we are Holy, Righteous and Perfect. In ourselves we are nothing.

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