Monday, July 25, 2011

So Full & Soli Deo Gloria

Welcome to Soli Deo Gloria.  Really, welcome.


I pray as you enter here, you feel overwhelmingly invited.  Soli Deo Gloria is a community of women that seek to encourage, support, love each other with our words.  There is laughter.  There are tears.  There is everything in between.  No matter where you are, who you are, where you have been, I want you to know that you are in the fold.  For more information about this community, please click here.  


This is a growing community (Thank you, Jesus!), so please don't feel that you have to visit every single person that links up.  We are all on a time budget.  That being said, I do invite you to pray and ask God which blogs to visit simply because there may be words for you left in that place or words that God has given you to share to those specific people.  Also, if you would like to be on the email list for reminders and the occasional prayer request, please let me know if the comments.  There have been so amazing ways that God has been working through prayer through these precious ladies.  Blessings to you.
Stephanie, me, Amy
Oh, y'all.

I'm writing this on Sunday afternoon, in the airport in North Carolina, because I know every moment on Monday, I will have two little blonde-headed things attached to my legs, and blogging will simply be out of the question.  I haven't been able to process 25% of what I have learned or experienced at She Speaks, so if my ramblings are convoluted and plain gibberish, just pat my blog on the head and move on.

First, thank you.  Thank you for enabling me financially, spiritually, and emotionally to attend the She Speaks Conference.  God used you.  Thank you for listening to His promptings to support me.  Thank you for offering me encouraging words when I was filled with self-doubt.  Thank you for being a part of God's calling in my life. Words cannot express how wonderful you make my world.  If you could see me now, you would see the tears glistening in my eyes.  I am overcome by love.

Frankly, I don't know where to start.  There is so much in my heart, so much on my mind, and then this thing called fatigue that makes me want to curl up with my new travel pillow at the gate and just close my eyes.  But my spirit, it is too alert, too ready to start weaving into my heart the truths that I learned.  I weep with joy not because the talks that I gave in my speaker evaluation groups were perfect (they were not), not because I've come home with a packed agenda filled with speaking engagements (not one), not because God has shown me the big picture of where I'll be at key points in my life (nope, just the opposite -- I know only the next little step).  I weep because I know Him.  I weep because He has taken a huge chisel to my heart and knocked away the stones that say:

I must achieve.

I must be perfect the first time, every time.

God might not show up.

I have to be big to be anything.

I'm behind in this race.

I weep because I am overcome.  Overcome with His grace and His love.  And I know this might sound trite.  How many times have I myself written these same words at different points in my life?  But somehow, friends, in some holy and mysterious and powerful way, this overcome has gone deep and flushed out so much negativity and worldliness that has lived in my heart for decades.  This overcome comes with freedom.  New breath.  New life.  


Will you keep me accountable, friends?  When I fall back into old habits of negativity and doubt, when I lose my confidence and start trying to manipulate situations because I fail to trust, will you remind me of the time when I was overcome?  Will you tell me that the chains are gone?  That I am free?


It's time for me to let you go visit others, but know that as I visit each of you, I am committing not just to read and comment on your blog.  I am committing to pray for you.  For if I've learned anything at She Speaks, the power of prayer moves mountains.


More to come...


With all my heart,
Jen




40 comments :

  1. How about we remind one another, keep one another accountable for those things? Looking forward to reading more about the conference. Thanks for hosting, as always.

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  2. I am so glad the conference was a blessing to you. I also join you in gratitude that God takes a chisel to our hearts to take away the stones of lies. Thank you, God!

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  3. Love the photo! I was thinking of you all this weekend - can't wait to read more about it!!

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  4. Oh, thief! I was so going to post that picture tomorrow...I still might since I only have three pics from the conference.

    I will keep you accountable. Yes, my pleasure. You know why? Because I saw first hand the freedom you felt and the lightness about you when you hit this realization.

    Can't wait to read what else you post about the conference.

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  5. This is so encouraging! Thanks for sharing this piece of SheSpeaks, this part of you, because it speaks to me, too.

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  6. This had to be awesome. I've thought of you and Amy so much the last four days!

    So anxious to hear all you have to share!

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  7. Thank you for sharing this first bit of your experience at She Speaks! I've never been, would love to go, but no wherewith right now. The truth and inspiration you came back with are fairly sparkling off my screen right now, and I feel like I've been touched by them too. Mind if I ride the coattails of your inspiration? So happy for you that you got to be there!!

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  8. It is so important to keep each other accountable. We all need help and support to keep us focused and overcome. Thanks

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  9. It is so fun to see the picture and we will enjoy seeing it on Amy's blog, too.:-)

    Thanks for sharing your initial thoughts and emotions. Enjoy a wonderful sweet transition home. We will be here when you are ready to share more.

    Fondly,
    Glenda

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  10. I agree with Nancy - let us hold one another accountable.

    Jen - reading your post brought back memories of me attending She Speaks two years ago. I came away overwhelmed, yet joyful; exhausted, yet full of enthusiasm. It took several weeks, if not months, for me to process the information I received.

    I can feel your enthusiam from the pages of the computer screen. I am so happy for you!

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  11. Yay! You have no idea how thankful I am to read these words. I suspected this would be your experience but again, am still so thankful. I prayed for you all and again, wish I could have been there with you three in that lovely photo, but next year is my year for sure. Can't wait - love that He moved you to a deeper level. Now rest, OK? :)

    Natalie at Mommy on Fire
    http://www.mommyonfire.com

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  12. Guess we were on the same page. I created a meme too. I'll link here, and hopefully you'll link to mine as well.

    www.chattykelly.com

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  13. Yay for God's powerful freedom! I can't wait to hear more. Love you.
    -lex

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  14. oh! I'm loving this...of course I'm jealous to see you and Amy and Stephanie together, but not really, only so happy you got to meet face-to-face (and I've gotten to meet some kindred bloggy friends here in CO...seriously, broken AND full). Yes, I will always remind you of the overcoming time and pray that your heart is revived to continually sense Him...I will remind you as I preach it to myself! You know I need it! Much love sister:)

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  15. Jen,
    It was so nice to meet you and hang out with you and Amy Saturday night. I wish I could've heard more about your story but I look forward to hearing it through your blog.
    Melody

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  16. I am so overjoyed with all that He did for you this weekend. Oh the beauty of a willing spirit and a listening heart. <3 Accountability? Of course. I think we could all use help with that. I know for me...those negative thoughts are an issue so we should encourage one another to know the truth. We are loved. We are worthy.

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  17. I identify with what you wrote, as I have been filled up with so much this past week, as well. I love this, "I weep because I know Him." That's what it is all about ... so amazing to know Him. Thanks for allowing this place to share with kindred hearts.

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  18. What joy! You and Amy got to go, and we all get to share in the blessing!Thank you for sharing and not hoarding:)

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  19. I love this post. The joy you have overflows into your post and it brings me joy to read it. Thank you for praying with us as you read our blogs. What a wonderful ministry you have. Prayer does move mountains, and it only takes a tiny bit of faith. Our God is good.

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  20. Amen to that! Thank you for sharing - you made me realise how we all battle with the same issues! What a WONDERFUL forum you have created here. I am overjoyed at finding this group of women! Sadly I live on the other side of the world but trust me, I will be a regular visitor here! Can't wait to read more about your experiences at the conference - what a blessing it was to be surrounded by so many women who live their lives as you do - openly and confidently praising and glorifying the Lord!

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  21. Hi Jen - I love your heart. I think all that chiseling can be painful but God wants us to be available and willing. He does the rest and when He does 'heart' remodeling, the beauty flows out.
    God bless
    Tracy

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  22. Have a wonderful time at the conference! Praying for refreshing for you.

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  23. Jen, I think the things you listed haunt most of us, no matter what form our ministry takes, large or small, public or private. I love that you put it "out" there so that we know that others have a chisel problem too.

    I'm praising God for the conference and all that He did in through, through you, and for you.

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  24. Beautiful, Jen. And yeah, I'll keep you accountable...if you'll do the same for me (you've got the tougher job with this Queen of Negativity!). Love ya!

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  25. My sister and I always talk about how when grace absolutely infuses our words, we start saying things like "wow, grace is amazing!" or "this is good news"! Things we've been saying forever suddenly take on a whole new meaning. I get this feeling from this blog! Love it! I'm excited for you and all the Lord has for you ahead.

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  26. Oh Jen, I think you learned the best lesson at SheSpeaks. God knows you, loves you and you are FREE! Love your heart! Many blessings, my sweet sister.

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  27. I'm in your balcony friend...I'm on the sidelines clapping and encouraging and praying. I stand amazed..once again..at how faithful He is and more than anything...how He just wants us to allow Him access to all of who we are so He can walk this journey with us. SO good to hear your heart!
    xo

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  28. Looking forward to hearing more. Thank God for FREEDOM!!! Blessings as you chart a new and better way forward.

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  29. Keep plugged in and continue to allow God to use you dear friend!

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  30. Jen!!! I love this pic!!!! LOVED meeting you and Amy, and so many more bloggy sisters!!!! I can't wait to see ya'll again next year!!!

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  31. Jen, I cannot believe you were at She Speaks and we didn't meet! *sad face*

    I, too, am overwhelmed by all God did at the conference. Still processing, but participating in Kelly's meme helped me put some thoughts down while they were fresh.

    Blessings to you!

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  32. Hi, Sweetheart! I'm so proud of you. All these things you offer up here...they show your true heart. What a wonderful time it must have been. So, so happy for you to find this special place in your walk with Him. I just know something wonderful is in His plan.

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  33. Jen-- Your post about She Speaks was beautiful. It gave me Holy God bumps on my arms as you shared your heart. I think all of us that were there can totally identify with what you said. Well at least I know I can. I look forward to being apart of this community and did feel very welcome! Blessings
    Jenn Hand

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  34. Yes, let's hold each other accountable!

    It was soooooo great meeting you at She Speaks! :)

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  35. Loved your post today and reading about the stones that were rolled away; I love where you are: "I weep because I know Him." So happy to hear how the conference ministered to you and look forward to more! :)

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  36. Oh, wow! I can only imagine what an amazing experience that was.

    I took a week off from the link up, but praying for all of you, too! Thank you!

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  37. Fantastic post, Jen! Praising God with you for the overcoming in our lives!

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  38. So excited for you and your time at the conference. Loved the part about God taking a chisel to parts of your heart where the lies were. That is a wonderful feeling yes?

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  39. "I must achieve.

    I must be perfect the first time, every time.

    God might not show up.

    I have to be big to be anything.

    I'm behind in this race."

    As I've visited the many blogs of She Speaks grads today, I'm always amazed when I run across a post that seems like it could have been written by me! This post is one of them. The words above certainly describe many of the feelings I am constantly trying to fend off. Some of those thoughts taunted me during the conference. Sometimes I weep simply because I know Him, as well. Continue to let God chisel you until the complete beauty of His plans for you and perfect design are revealed.

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  40. Jen,
    Nice to "meet" you on Chatty Kelly's She Speaks followup site. What a wonderful conference! It was my first time there and I am still processing everything and working on my to do lists.

    As I browse your site just now, your writing tone and honesty just pull me in. It makes me eager to grab a cup of coffee and process many of these same thoughts with you. May God bless and lead your speaking ministry for His glory! :)
    A fellow speaker/writer,

    www.jenniferdougan.com

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