5 Minute Friday Rules:
- 1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. Get a little crazy with encouragement for the five minuter who linked up before you.
I almost just closed the computer. Something about "old" makes me do that. I'm not sure why I have such a problem with the continual years that creep up on me. I've been so used to being the "baby" of my group of friends that perhaps I just enjoyed that space and time in my life a little too much.
But the truth is, maybe the number is catching up with who I really am, who I have always been. I've never really just acted my age, even as a little girl. I've pretty much built my life around being the grown-up, trying to be really wise, trying to manage everything that comes my way.
And so this week, even though I had pledged to allow myself sometime to play while the children were back at school, I have been stuck in "older." I have been stuck acting my age -- responsible, mature, taking care of business. Even when there wasn't work, I made some. Yes, I thoroughly enjoyed rearranging my pantry and tupperware cabinet, but was there rest in that?
In my 33 years, I still don't know what it means to rest, even after a year of God talking to me about it. Sure, I think I have more head knowledge, but it hasn't settled into the recesses of my heart and so I am not compelled to take part in it.
I want to get to the place where it's not work to rest, where it's not work to play. I still have much to learn as I grow older, but learn to live younger.