Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Surrender Me

It's starting to seep into my bones.
Weariness?
Fatigue?
Longing for a moment, or maybe more than just
one.

But it's not this feeling,
that I am at the end of myself,
the notion that at any minute,
bitterness and short-tempered reactions
will consume me and explode outwardly.
It's not that I feel broken,
or even that I need to escape.

No, here in my heart,
a result of a recent conviction that perhaps
I can do better,
I can be better,
for my children,
for my husband,
this striving not from a place that longs
for perfection,
but that yearns for love,
that yearns to love,
that yearns to depend on the God
that first loved me.

It is the surrender that seeps,
into my bones, into my heart, into my mind,
that yes. Yes.
This is the way,
to walk in love.
To be cognizant of my tone,
of the state of my heart,
to forgive, to build up, to look forward with hope.
Not counting the days left,
or looking forward to the future because of the promises
hidden there.
No, it is being content in the present,
gratitude for the moment,
looking up instead of in.

Linking with the beautiful Emily at Imperfect Prose.


19 comments :

  1. I love this, "It is the surrender that seeps into my bones". Oh, that this would happen every moment.

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  2. thank you! "To be cognizant of my tone,
    of the state of my heart,
    to forgive, to build up, to look forward with hope.
    Not counting the days left,
    or looking forward to the future because of the promises
    hidden there.
    No, it is being content in the present,
    gratitude for the moment,
    looking up instead of in." I needed that!

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  3. This is so beautiful and timely. God has been speaking to me about contentment and His timing. That last paragraph is wonderful. Thank you for another reminder of contentment in the present.

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  4. love it Jen! She speaks needs a poetry track!

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  5. A willingness to be accountable and honest shines through clear and bright in the piece

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  6. Ok, I just finished reading another blog that was talking about our attitude and outlook, then I come hear and read this words - "To be cognizant of my tone, of the state of my heart, to forgive, to build up, to look forward with hope." Definitely something God and I are working on. Thanks, Jen!

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  7. "looking up instead of in." So good Jen, this phrase, and all of it!

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  8. Beautiful! You have such a gift, my friend.
    Love to you~
    Cindy

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  9. "This is the way,
    to walk in love." Oh Jen, yes...the end of ourselves...rising in Him

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  10. nice...absolutely love the last stanza...it is so full of truth...nice write poet...

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  11. choosing to surrender...from the place that beckons and requires nothing less. thankful for you

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  12. I know that feeling...the one of feeling like I could be better. Surrendering is the only answer.

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  13. I love your words, and that last line "looking up instead of in"... says so much about surrender. Lovely, Jen.

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  14. oh, girl, this was so good. beautifully written by such a beautiful heart. and i can SO relate. thank you for this.

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  15. Hi Jenn

    This was really beautiful and struck a chord within me. I've been in that place where the 'tone' I've been using, the unforgiving thoughts etc need to be reined in. Thank you for this place of accountability. Looking up at Him instead of down at everything else.. great advice!

    God bless!

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  16. Jen.. i love this. I especially was struck by the last line looking up instead of looking in.. I want to always lift mine eyes to the hills (psalms 121) because sometimes what is "in" makes no sense at all. Praying for you adn I have to tell you this blog community has ministered to me so much!

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  17. wow jen. i needed this today... this reminder to be content in the moment. thank you so much sister.

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  18. This is amazing. Thankful that I found your blog. I'm in need of other writer friends. :) I came over from The High Calling and plan to stay.

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