Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Pervaded

O God, you are my God;
I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
Psalm 63: 1

I've been thinking lately --
what prohibits us from seeing this life from a God perspective?
Sometimes I forget who I am.
And a lot of times, I choose to forget what the Word says.
And I am seeing what competition this world is --
this world view that so often floods my very being,
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a world view that tells me I must compete for what I have,
for what I deserve,
for even what He has called me to be.
That people are secondary and things are of primary importance.
How often do I choose things --
things that need buying
or
cleaning
or 
adorning
over people?
Over my children?
And how often do I choose people simply because they could
adorn me?
fill me?
elevate me?
How quickly the God perspective is drowned out
by the drone of the television
or in the books
or in the to-do list
or even the blogs
and the class
and the prayers.
And the question becomes:

Am I pervaded by God?

If I am, I do only the things He puts on my heart
and I am filled by the living water,
and not by this dry and parched land.

If I am...

And I read this Psalm 63,
this first verse,
and every time, it seems,
I am moved to tears.
Because I know what my soul truly longs for.
And I know how my mind and body often choose
to simply believe the lies
that there is something better than God
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or that He needs some kind of supplement.
And I imagine myself, 
myself without God,
living a life unpervaded,
and I am simply a straggly girl,
crawling across the sandy desert floor,
yearning and despairing and dying
for a drink.
I don't want to be a straggly girl
who acts out of desperation.
I want to be in His sanctuary.
I want to be satisfied.
To be filled to the brim even when my worldly circumstances
are less than.

But, I must be pervaded.  
Infused.
Permeated.
With Him.
Him alone.

20 comments :

  1. We are not perfect at this with all the worldly influences, the desire is there and the want to be about Jesus is there, this is where we need to keep our focus for sure.....love all your insight, you know I do! (smile)

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  2. Love this post...such truth in these words...I too get caught up in more than I care to admit...thank you for the gift of remembering today to be prevaded and infused and permeated with his truth! (love these descriptors too :)
    Blessings to you!

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  3. permeated with him...what a cool way to put it...yes i want the same...and some great stirrings int he thoughts after reading and finding myself there at times..

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  4. You capture this psalm well, Jen. It's one of my favorites; it gets me too. I so want to be pervaded by God, but how often I turn away from that Living Water and drink dirty water elsewhere.

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  5. Oh Jen, loved this post so much! Those verses are in my daily prayers too. Thank you for the spilling of your heart that speaks for my own heart. I want to be pervaded by Him. I'll be back to read this again.

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  6. Jen, my heart testifies to everything you wrote. Why do I so often try to fill my life with everything but God? Only God can satisfy the longing in my soul. So beautiful! Thank you, and many blessings!

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  7. thank God that He loves the scraggly girls. us desert seekers that crave His water of Life.

    bless you for these words, Jen. again, you refresh my heart.

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  8. I love your word choices throughout this post! I especially like this "If I am, I do only the things He puts on my heart and I am filled by the living water,and not by this dry and parched land." Oh so many days I feel parched but all I have to do is come alongside the living water to feel renewed and restored once again!

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  9. yes...words to live by...If I do only the things He puts in my heart...learning to abide in Him...he will lead...He will fill...great post
    Blessings~

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  10. The words here - straight from your heart - are beautiful. touched me deeply. Ones I want to print out and reread. I think I will and put it in my Bible right next to Psalm 63 - a special psalm for me too. I know we earnestly seek Him but I need to remind myself over and over again as the quote goes: Bidden or Unbidden He is here!

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  11. Especially this:

    How often do I choose things --
    things that need buying
    or
    cleaning
    or
    adorning
    over people?
    Over my children?
    And how often do I choose people simply because they could
    adorn me?
    fill me?
    elevate me?

    What a specific line of self questioning. so often we stop at "forgive me" or "help me" but this, this cuts deep. I wrote today about the God Who Sees -- even there in our desert wanderings, he sees and provides living water. What would we do without him?

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  12. Man...this is so very good. I'm linking it on WINGS. Everyone should read this.

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  13. Beautiful. And full of hope...

    My hearted needed this today.

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  14. I want to be saturated with God and His word. This was beautiful. thanks.

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  15. yes jen. i want to be his sanctuary too. and girl, i see you doing this... i see you putting him first, even by choosing to not comment on everyone's post in your meme so you can spend more time with family and God. this is good. so good.

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  16. May I always choose people...and for the right reasons. We are God containers. We must do what we must in order to retain the God in us so that He is more than we can contain.

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  17. And the things of this Earth will slowly pass away in the light of his glory and grace . . . that song always comes to mind when I read a post like this, Great message!

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  18. Wonderfully deep musings, Jen. And I can so relate -- this post is a good companion piece to my Hole in the Gospel post today, in which I admit to succumbing to material and societal demands.

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