Thursday, January 26, 2012

Cultivate: knowing when to turn over the tools

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I realized this afternoon (writing here on Wednesday) that I don't have a good shut-off valve.  God gives me a task, a job, a mission, and I push forth with everything I have to do what I believe He has called me to do.  I get so focused on the task that I don't realize that my energy is depleting at a rapid rate and if energy was blood, I'd be due for a transfusion any minute now.

I go out and meet God in my garden.  He stands there with His hand outstretched.  I hide the spade in my hand, promising that I can enjoy the space without toiling, really I can.  But why don't you let me keep the spade just in case a little weed pops up and I need to take care of it real quick, I say.

He doesn't say anything.  But He looks into my eyes and He shakes His head.  Finally, His words break the silence and I hear the whisper:

This is my garden.  And I need my tool.  It's my turn.

Like a little girl, I shyly pull the spade from behind my back and place it in His hand.  I look around and the work that has been done, the seeds that have been planted, and there is simply nothing more that I can do in this moment.

Trust me, He says.  Believe the words I have given you.

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And I think back...

Psalm 27:3

Joshua 1:9

I don't want to get point where I have built fences around my garden, shutting out the one who gave me this space to begin with.

So I put down the tools, surrendering to the Ultimate Caretaker.

I find a bench not far.  I curl up with a good book.  And I read.

10 comments :

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  2. What a powerful post both in words and thought. I am so touched I do not have words to express myself but to say I will ponder on this post all day...Your words have touched my heart in a deep way and I know that God is speaking to me and reminding me that there is time to work and time to rest....Your have been His voice today....Thank you...

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  3. This reminds me of a song by Flowers for Zoe called "I'll drive instead." Loosely it says: Little one, lay your head down and put your feet up on the dash. Close your eyes, fantasize, my child, just relax. You've got a mighty, mighty long way to go and this road's taken more than a few for dead, but don't you worry, if you let me I'll drive instead." :)

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  4. Yay! I hope you enjoyed your book. Wonderful image and thank you for it.

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  5. I love this analogy. I have often gleaned so much wisdom from my "garden time" with God. Thank you for this! Blessings ~

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  6. Jen, dear, This is magnificent. Like Nancy, I will think about it all day.
    Thank you.

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  7. What a lesson and powerful image. I too don't have a good shut off valve. I have learn to pray: "Help me pace, Lord." Too often I lack behind in the past with regrets and discouragement or run ahead of Him, trying to control the outcomes. My pacing is like your handing over the tools. Your garden image will stay with me for awhile. Thank you!

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  8. This is a wonderful post...love how He spoke to you and you listened and gave it back to Him...so sweet. Thank you, Jen :)

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  9. Yes, yes. I get it- I really really get it. So many of us needed to hear this ;)

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