I was hesitant to publish the post in which I let it all hang out and yet, what good is it to pretend that I am something I am not? How can I know that I am really part of a community until I am accepted for the entirety of what I am and not just the good stuff? I can be encouraging and welcoming and loving, but I can also let my overachieving, driven-by-success, scale mentality-side of my personality get in the way of what God wants me to do. I can make my whole life about ministry for God and still forget God. Yes, I didn't even realize that was what I was doing when I neglected my Sabbath until I was in front of my class talking about Jonah. Nothing like standing in front of twenty women and realizing that the words coming out of your mouth are words that God is directing straight back at you. Yeppers, that was a fun moment for me.
But, back to community. I was just absolutely floored by the emails and comments I received -- the understanding, the compassion, the wisdom, the forgiveness flowed into my heart and overtook my soul. There is nothing that motivates me more to get rid of the sin in my heart than love (I need to employ this with my children more often). It's like love makes the soil of my heart drenched with living water. The watering enables roots of the weeds to become unentrenched from the recesses of my heart, and God can pull them out with so much more ease. Or rather, I am more willing to see them go because my soil feels nourished, the nutrients present. The craving for a good, healthy mind-set surpasses my desire for worldly acclimation and success.
In this community, I feel loved. You all inspire me to press in more fully to God, to you. Without fear of rejection, I can lay my soul bare, and I thank you for that. Thank you for loving. Thank you for caring. Thank you for supporting and growing and being in this space with me. It is my desperate prayer that every single one of you would feel the intense love that spans this space, the love of God that flows through Sisters in Christ.
SDG Community Builder: 1) In effort to make sure everyone feels loved here, will you please visit the 2 people ahead of you and leave a comment for them? (If you are numero uno or dos, come back and visit the last person in the link up). 2) Don't forget to order your t-shirt (click here for details). I'm extending the pre-order deadline to March 17th.