Monday, September 2, 2013

The Moving Line of Enough and the Soli Deo Gloria Party

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This summer, I battled with the concept of enough.
Then, I started wrestling with adequate.
The second part of the above definition gets me every time.  Being adequate is not good enough for the world.  Most days, it's not good enough for me.  But the truth is, I can't sustain excellence in every part of my life every day.  I'm not even sure I can exude excellence every day in any area.  Excellence is sort of miraculous around these parts.

Any given day, I war with an invisible, constantly moving standard...

Am I spending enough time with my children?
Is my writing good enough to be published?
Is my body enough for my husband?
Did I train hard enough for my race?
Did I pray enough, clean enough, serve enough, love enough, show enough self-control?
Do I give enough to church? Enough to charity? Have I sponsored enough children?

Am I enough?  And how do I know?  Because the line always seems to be moving.  "Enough" doesn't seem to be a final destination.  There is no finite arrival time because there is always a little bit better, a little bit more, a little bit closer, a little bit less, and a little bit more.  This pursuit of excellence can be unattainable, perfection never fully achieved, because we live in a world where the possibility of better could always exist.  We know this, and yet, we live like we do not.

In my world, adequate is not okay, but what about in God's world?  I am so guilty of letting the roar of the world's judgement rush into my head and heart, a gigantic wave of impossible standards crush me. I drown in a sea of unworthiness.

But what does the still, quiet voice say?  What does Jesus say to me as He plunges His hand into the ocean, rescuing this drowned-rat-looking girl?  What do His eyes communicate to me as I begin to weep, pointing out all of my weaknesses, showing Him all that I have left undone, lacking, messy?
Ah, that word "sufficient."  It's in the definition of "enough" but I overlook it the first time around because the fear of adequate stops me from learning further.  Do you know that the archaic definition of sufficient is competent?  And being competent means you are able to get the job done?  And while competent also means adequate, but not exceptional, don't we know the One who makes us exceptional?  The One who made us unique?  The One who designed us for such a time as this?

Sometimes, I forget that I am designed to be human, not superhuman.  Do you forget this, too?

Sometimes, I forget that I am designed to reflect God's glory, not my own.  Do you forget this, too?

Sometimes, I forget that in my weakness, there I find the very strength of God.  Do you forget this, too?

Sometimes, I forget that God designed us to be in relationship with Him and if I excelled at all things at all times (or maybe even at one thing all the time), I would not even think to need Him.

And to not need God, to not be in relationship with Him, oh, what a sad life.  To not know the joy that comes with Jesus?

I'll take worldly labels that define me as inadequate, adequate, or not enough any day if it means that I can cling to Jesus, if it means He can make up for my lack, if it means I can lay my striving down and simply live sufficiently in His grace.

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29 comments :

  1. You're speaking wise, wise words here, Jen. Just when I think I *know* that it's GOD that is enough, I still *feel* that I need to be enough in my own skin. Lies. I will always need him and that's how he wants it to be.

    I want to grow past this:
    "We know this, and yet, we live like we do not."

    Thanks for sharing your wisdom here.

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    1. May we keep each other accountable, to remember, to live as though we DO!

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  2. This encouraged my soul tonight, Jen. Thanks.

    I am blogging totally off topic tonight. I just haven't had time to put my any thoughts together on our SDG theme. Boo hoo :(

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    1. No worries! Whatever your thoughts, you know they are welcome here!

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  3. Oh, my...YES, I forget these things...over and over again! What a power punch you packed tonight, sister. With lots of love to you, Jen, ~ linda

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    1. Thank you, Linda. It was kinda of a power punch to my own gut while I was writing it.

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  4. Trying to be enough is so exhausting. I am only tempted to try once in awhile ... and then I get too tired again.

    Great post, Jen.

    Fondly,
    Glenda

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    1. "Too tired" -- this could be a really good litmus test for when I am striving for something I need not strive for after all.

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  5. the concept of that ever-moving line...right on, sister. it's idolatry.

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    1. Yes, and often, the idol is my own self.

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  6. Oh yes, Jen ... there's two lies that we seem to richochet back and forth between. 'I am not enough' OR 'I am too much.'

    Futile, exhausting, debilitating this crazymaking all is. Especially when He says we are 'beloved.'

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    1. Why can't we become super tied to His names for us instead of being chained to the world's names?

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  7. Great message this morning! I like the idea that how the world defines us reminds all the more that He is all we need. Thank you!

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  8. Jen, it's not me me me it's Him Him Him. Are we enough? No, we're not enough. HE is enough.

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  9. It must be a universal issue with women on this subject but I think when we are in this we feel like we are the only one.

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    1. So good to share our thoughts with each other so we know we are not alone.

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  10. I'm never enough except through the grace of my God. How often I forget the truth that "He makes up for my lack."

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    1. We must remember that we are created to need Him.

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  11. Dear Jen,
    You are speaking my language, and you are speaking God's truth...it is never about us being enough but about Him being more than enough, and 2 Cor. 12:9 is one of my favorite verses, because it is only in my weakness that I have ever been open enough to receive His strength. Blessings to you :)

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    1. We do have to be open, don't we, Dolly. Ready to receive.

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  12. It's so freeing to let go of the unrealistic expectations we place upon ourselves! God's grace is truly sufficient. That's been a truth I've been reminded of through one humbling experience after another over the past few months. Thankful for you and your heart, Jen!

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    1. It is -- to get out from under the pressure and into His arms -- must be a taste of Heaven.

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  13. Clinging to the truth is so much safer and secure than believing the lies. You are on to something here, preach it! HE is Enough!

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    1. Amen, Jody! I want to be secure in Him every morning.

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  14. Yes! I forget all those things too. Thank you for pointing us to His truth. Beautiful and inspiring post! Blessings to you.

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