Friday, January 10, 2014

FMF: See

I've curled up in my chair, pulled my bible and my journal on my lap, and I'm overcome with fatigue. After my kids have been back in school for a week, I feel more tired than I was when they were home.  I try to figure it out...

How can this be?

And I realize that in one week, I added everything back in that I had laid down while they were home.  I'm blogging and planning for Bible study and editing the book.

And running.  Running, running, and more running.  Because that's what you do when you train for a marathon.

And of course all this fatigue leads me to complaining on the lines of my journal.  And I hear these words...

My yoke is easy.  My burden is light.

And I write down in my journal these whispered words.  And after that, these words:

I need a perspective shift here.  I'm not sure what it is exactly, but I can glimpse it.

I'm thinking it's not about the things I do, but about the state of my  heart while I do them.  The state of my dependency on God.  Are my offerings and outpourings always tied to Him?

Because if they are not, they begin to become my own burdens, my own yokes.

Those are not easy.  Those are not light.

I'm curled up in my chair and I pray for eyes to see, for His perspective to become clear.

To gain that, I just might have to close my own.


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I'm hanging out with Lisa-Jo this morning.  Want in?  Here's the deal:

1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
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8 comments :

  1. I can so relate, though I'm not doing the exact same things as you. I don't run, ever. ;) But, really, I have felt more tired this week after kids returned to school than their break. I also realize I need a perspective shift! I'll pray that you get yours as I pray for my own. Blessings! (visiting from Five Minute Friday)

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  2. I needed this reminder today, friend. Thank you.

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  3. Checking in on you Jen and hoping all is well in your little corner. Still running, oh, me, makes me tired just thinking about it. :o) Blessings to you and yours this new year!

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  4. Yes, how easy it is to lose perspective and try to carry the burdens on our own. Reminds me of an article I wrote back in 2012 during the Olympics: http://ungrind.org/2012/perspective/ .. Grace to you, and may He give you eyes to see His glory.

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  5. This is so good! I think sometimes I have to close my eyes here and there, to refocus and get His perspective on things. My vision so often gets blurred and out of focus. Love you girl!

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  6. "Fatigue makes cowards of us all." - Vince Lombardy -

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  7. "To gain that (perspective) I just might have to close my own (eyes)." Wow. Yes.

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  8. I will certainly pray for you as you train!! I'm with you!!

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