Friday, April 11, 2014

FMF: Paint

I treated the painting class like all my other college classes...a place to make an A.

I wanted to do the right strokes, make the right colors, paint things as I saw them...the literal objects set before me.  If I could mimic real life, that would mean I was good.  Talented.  Worthy.

And then she went up there and presented her painting...the still life that looked only vaguely similar to the flower she painted.

It was beautiful.  And I was jealous.

That 20 year old college me wanted to stand up and say, "That's not fair! That's not what it looks like! I didn't know we could get creative with what we saw!"

Brat.

But I see that 20 year old in the class, that 20 year old who hadn't found that suppressed voice that nodded yes when she painted outside the lines, when reality blurred a bit and she saw beyond what her eyes took in.

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Painting helps break me out of my literal and black and white ruts.  It fuels my passion for living a grace-filled life, where you can paint over the mistakes with other shades of acrylic, where you can use the built up bumps and ridges to create a texture that never existed before.

Oh, how God has uses the bumps and ridges of my mistakes past to build something entirely new, to give my life a texture it never had.  Oh, how God has let the lines get blurry, let the blacks and whites turn to gray...and make grace.

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I'm hanging out with Lisa-Jo this morning.  Want in?  Here's the deal:

1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community..

3 comments :

  1. The textured life - I love it, Jen! This post says so much, in 5 minutes! A+

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  2. Your post said more than 1000 words. Thanks.

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  3. Lovely Jen, how good that we can break out of the black and white ruts

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